Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

Link: http://hellopoetry.com/poem/you-and-i-8/

You are
delicious
And I am
greedy.
You are
generous
And I am
needy.
You are
experienced
And I am
learning.
You are
flammable
And I am
burning.

STEPHON kissed me in the spring,
Robin in the fall,
But Colin only looked at me
And never kissed at all.

Stephon’s kiss was lost in jest,
Robin’s lost in play,
But the kiss in Colin’s eyes
Haunts me night and day.

Near tears as I watch a digital image of you
smiling, laughing, breathing, stretching
teasing…So deceptive
as if I could reach out and touch you there
but I can’t and I ache to
my heart burns and longs as I hold back my tears
I miss you so much
Your touch, your taste,the scent of your skin
your beautiful face, full sensual mouth
that taunts me in the dark-memories of your kisses
torment me….fill me with want
I can’t fight it and I don’t want to
I miss you so much
and these memories
make me feel close to you
they remind me that I belong to you
as much as you belong to me

why do I let you
make me feel empty?
why do I let you
make me feel alone?

Why can’t I tell you
that sometimes I need you
to see me
to really look at me
standing here
watching you.

look at me
see what’s in my eyes
what’s there for you.

But you are blind
and I can’t make you see.

You see the actions
but don’t hear the words
they whisper
what I’m trying to say
without speaking.

I can’t tell you
for fear you won’t hear
the words from my mouth
or the sound of
a heart breaking
through unshed tears.

there will come a day
when I will walk away

when I find the will
though I want you still

but I linger on
after so long

waiting for you to see
what lives in me

I looked for you in the night sky
I looked, but you weren’t there
the sky was dark, completely black
the moon was hiding, silently crying
mourning the absence of her brightest star
I begged her to rise and shine down on me
sobbing she replied, she hadn’t the will
no strength, no desire, to share her light
her warm glowing rays locked inside
she cried to me, that she had no purpose
that she was empty, cold and alone
without you, her brightest star, by her side
and I felt her pain, the sad chill
her desolation in your absence
her inability to go on alone, the futility
tenderly I told her, you must go on
rise high into the night sky, share your light
flood the world with your glow, because of him
for him and all he means to you
let him see your light, your faithful vigil
no matter where he is, he will know
how you struggled without him at your side
how strong your devotion is that you wait
there in your place, knowing he will return
-and she rose! eve smiled…beamed
there she remains, shining so full of love
for you…her brightest star

Its so exhausting
eluding you…
explaining the why
when I don’t really know
It crazy behavior
I can see that
…now
sitting here
warm….at ease
giving a little
opening a little
and coming closer
this eluding
seems…
pointless
You’ve managed
to corner me
and I feel no need
to run

if your heart should die
gather its ashes
into your trembling hands
lift them to the wind
and they will return one day
when you are whole
to love again

There are those days
when life is beating me down
and I need someone who cares
Someone who loves me
knows me
Someone to hold me close
and chase away my demons
to comfort me with kisses
and caresses into the night
releasing me to a peaceful dream
to start my day anew

Only an empty house greets me
I walk slowly to my room, weary
sitting on my bed, face in my hands
I let it all out in tears
alone in a quiet house
crying until I’m empty
tucking myself into a cold bed
in a dark resting house
I toss and turn unsettled
waiting for sleep to come
my thoughts loud and unending
echoing in the dark

in the cool quiet dark
my body slumbers
calm shallow breathing
i wait…
locked inside myself
i am empty, hollow..blank
You hold the key
You touch me and i wake
eyes wide and full of yearning
with a look, a word
You draw me up
into the warm glowing light
that is You
You fill me…complete me
leave Your mark upon me
You are my desire burning bright
and everything else fades to black

bring to me a quick cold death
let my soul be free
my soul is black
full of a pain I refuse to admit
in death…
I can be dark and haunting
painfulweepingsobbing
in the dark of midnight
and go unnoticed
souls are allowed to exist in torment
people are not
they won’t tolerate my emotions
being spilled
they won’t allow my feelings
to be real
they belittle
waving it aside with a cold hand
I am not allowed to be a person
filled with emotions I can’t control
and deep need, ache that I can’t fill
I am not allowed to tell you
the things I feel
you aren’t prepared to hear them anyway

but at night when you hear the wind
moaning and howling
it chills you but
you can’t quiet it
and the lonely hurting souls
hide in the wind
so they can finally be heard

with a heavy knife
pierce my chest and cut
a deep gaping rent
free my soul
and let it scream my pain
into the wind
for eternity
10/13/00

I feel it at my throat
and I want to scream
unleash the anger and frustration
the bone aching exhaustion
the fact that I just don’t give a fuck
not today
I’ve had all I can stomach of this
and if I don’t scream
or hitkickpummell someone
I’m going to fall to my knees
and sob
and sob
until its all gone
and I’m empty again
let me purge my soul
and lie here in the dark
feeling nothing, empty
blank…. white

I feel it at my throat
and I want to rage and rage and rage
but when the gates are open
it can’t be stopped or held back
and getting there …to white
is a painful, draining trip
but I can only swallow so much

in my mind, in the dark
in an empty field beneath the stars
I will cry out to the sky
and be freed….

you drifted away
again
my life feels empty
again
so quiet and lonely
again
I sit and wait
again
for you to return
again
with the soft, tender words
again
drawing me close to you
again
safe and comforting me
again
until you drift away
again

Can you love
one day a week?
or twice a month?

Can you love
on two stolen moments
in a miriad of missed
minutes, hours, days?

Can you love
in a rush of shared
words, passions
and desires?

Can you love
from afar
never really
knowing me?

Can you love
an idea?
an image
you paint?

Do you love?
clinging to that
feeling of elation
when we met
and sparked?

Do you love?
feeding that feeling?
Coveting it
allowing it to be
feel
more than it is?

Do you?
can you?
love me???