Foreverpurple

You can see relationship trouble brewing quite clearly now, yet you may not be able to say much about it. If there is a problem between you and your spouse or partner, it’s not going to go away until you address it directly. Still, it may be better to wait for circumstances to improve. In the meantime, do what you can to stabilize things so there will be common ground to meet upon.
By Rick Levine

Seriously? Ugh…just ugh. I think I’ll choose to ignore this one. Matt stayed over last night and I had some feelings that we are in danger of resuming our old habits and patterns. I’m afraid that is a bad thing. I’m not sure if it’s valid or not but it feels like that’s how we got to this place to begin with. I could be wrong on that… hard to say right now.

I came home from work last night tired and cranky because I had to stop and pick up something for dinner AND decide what to get (it gets old being the one who has to make nearly every decision). I had intended to just eat something at home for a change, knowing there was left over pizza for Matt. He sent me a text asking what was for dinner cuz there was nothing there that he likes to eat (except pizza). Matt got out of class earlier in the day and he could have taken care of dinner but I didn’t say anything and obviously I SHOULD HAVE. So it’s not entirely fair to him because he didn’t know I was tired and annoyed.

Anyway I texted Matt to tell him I would need help carrying stuff in. I expected him to be waiting at the door ready to come out since I gave him a heads up that I was 10 mins away. I had to honk the horn and then he opened the door. He let the girls out and then it seemed like he was just standing there waiting for me to come to the door so he could open it for me. So I snapped at him. He said he was getting his shoes but I didn’t see that.

The bottom line is we take each other for granted and don’t communicate our feelings very well. We are both guilty of holding back and that causes animosity. I feel like I could elaborate more here but I’ll save it for therapy. Yeah… therapy. Holy shit.