In the smallest of ways, Matt continues to surprise me with his devotion and determination to make our relationship stronger. Sometimes I find myself frightened by how much I love him. The fear of getting hurt again surfaces and I try to protect myself, to remind myself to stay alert and not get complacent. That really is pointless, it’s impossible to do. Each small gesture makes me love him that much more.

We had a great time yesterday. He didn’t get home till late afternoon but we went out for a late lunch and then did some shopping. We came home and watched In Real Life online. He was going to go with me today to see it live but he got called to work. On his way in he sent a text to say to drive safe bcuz of the snow. Then he said to tell Michelle that the play was very good. THAT made me cry. I had actually been IMing with her and was telling her he watched the WHOLE show with me! She asked if he liked it but I told her he didn’t say. Then he just comes out of nowhere with that.

I don’t think I expected him to be able to make such a change. I guess so many times in my life I have seen men promise to change, to be different and to make things right and it’s always an empty promise. They were just saying it to placate and smooth things over. I have to be fair to him and not judge him based on my past experiences. Which is HARD but he is worth it.