I intended to blog again tonight about how excited I am about this election, like I have never been before but my TM this evening changed my mindset.

Many thoughts come to me during my meditations, it’s part of the process. They are always random, that’s the nature of meditation. Tonight one of these thoughts was about Matt coming home and how much I have been thinking it over, struggling to make a decision. Then I was hit with: We had a life together. A life I loved. And that made me burst into tears but at the same time it made me realize that I am happy about the decision to let Matt come back home. It feels right. I’m still unsure about the future but this feels like a step we should take. Our relationship has been far more good than bad. We have far more happy times than bad times. Matt brings me friendship, joy, laughter, love, comfort and security.

So while I have been a bit squeamish about the idea of counseling, I have come to terms with it as a step to take for us.

Since I know you will be reading this… luv u