I think I’m giving up. Gave up. I’m tired. I’m sad and frustrated by your distance and how unimportant it makes me feel. You are there for me when things are bad, the worst. I want you there today, yesterday and tomorrow just as a friend even when I don’t need you. I don’t want you to be my emotional crutch. I want you to be my friend. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t know what else to say. Not like you would hear me anyway.